what i mentioned being confused about earlier is my relationship with steven . . . . i'm so retarded! i keep talking about james, then i get pissed off, and i stop talking . . . (when steven and me go out) and it's just . . . dumb . . . . i hate all boys, except for steven . . . i'm not really sure how i feel about him . . . well, i think i am . . . maybe not . . . see what i mean?